It seemed too good to be true. Me, acceptable to God, just as I am? He knew my heart's desperate desire for acceptance. I couldn't earn His extravagant love or unconditional acceptance by good grades or perfect obedience. Receiving it from the magnificent God who created the universe with a single word created a deep hunger and thirst for Him.
Though I was raised in a Christian home, we didn't always attend church. One gift my parents gave me was the absolute certainty that the Bible is God's absolute truth written to reveal Himself to us. And so I studied. Looking back at those years when I was a teenager and a very young adult, I marvel at how little I really understood.
The promise, above, is that we'll be filled. Filled with what? His righteousness. Not our own, which is as filthy rags. (Isa 64:6) His, Christ's righteousness. The same righteousness that was accounted to Abraham in Genesis 15:6. He believed in the Lord, and He accounted it to him for righteousness.
In The Message of the Sermon on the Mount, John Stott said it best:
There is perhaps no greater secret of progress in Christian living than a healthy, hearty spiritual appetite. Scripture addresses its promises to the hungry. God 'satisfies him who is thirsty, and the hungry he fills with good things'. (Psalms 107:9) If we are conscious of slow growth, is the reason that we have a jaded appetite? It is not enough to mourn over past sin; we must also hunger for future righteousness.
Yet in this life our hunger will never be fully satisfied, nor our thirst fully quenched. True, we receive the satisfaction which the beatitude promises. But our hunger is satisfied only to break out again. Even the promise of Jesus that whoever drinks of the water he gives 'will never thirst' is fulfilled only if we keep drinking. (John 4:13-14; 7:37)
In my opinion, relationship with God is a large part of the joy of following Christ. It was through that hunger and thirst that I, a redeemed sinner, moved beyond head knowledge into a relationship with God. It was only by satisfying that hunger and thirst for Him by devouring His Word, spending time with Him in prayer and yielding to the Holy Spirit did my life begin to change. Obedience to the Word of God is essential. This is where the healing of my mind, my will and my emotions began. It was a process.
God is faithful.
For He satisfies the longing soul, And fills the hungry soul with goodness. Psalm 107:9